I walked out. The evening air was cool. I sat in the driver’s seat and started the engine. The alternator still whined. I drove to a quiet motel off the interstate. I paid for a week with cash. I bought a pack of spiral notebooks from a corner gas station. I sat by the window and watched the taillights roll by on the highway. For the first time in years, the noise in my head was gone.


The next morning, I called the dental practice manager. They offered me back my old chair, full hours. I said yes. I put on my navy scrubs. I drove past the subdivision. I didn’t look down my street. I turned onto the main road and merged into traffic.


A month later, I signed the closing papers on a small two-bedroom townhouse near the park. It had cracked ceramic tile in the entryway and a fenced yard the size of a postage stamp. I bought a basic coffee maker at Walmart. I planted rosemary in a plastic pot by the door. I transferred the hydrangeas to a clay planter. They pushed out new green shoots by October.


David and Barbara moved into a cramped one-bedroom apartment across town. They kept trying to call my old number. I let it ring. I focused on my patients. I saved a little money every paycheck. I started sketching window displays for fun. I met a woman at the Kroger checkout who liked the same brand of herbal tea. We had coffee on a Saturday afternoon. We didn’t talk about husbands or in-laws. We talked about the weather and the new park benches.